Europe bound!

I can't wait to go to europe!! Maybe I will coem back a changed person. Maybe I will come back and have things to talk about besides relationships and as my friend trevor would say my "seinfeld" episodes. He thinks that i make the biggest deals out of the smallest things and that I am crazy paranoid. I happen to agree. But years of relationships and dating has made me over cautious to the point of craziness!! Its just way to hard to believe that I man can actually be nice to me and genuinely like me. THERE HAS TO BE A ALTERIOR MOTIVE RIGHT??? I guess maybe I am crazy...but for the nest few weeks maybe ill try to "act" sane and hopefully it may come naturally after that.